I can't sleep…
Michael Cameron Anderson, 27, known professionally as Anderson East, is a rhythm and blues/pop musician from Athens, Alabama, later based in Nashville, Tennessee. His grandfather was a Baptist preacher, his father sang in the church choir, and his mother played the piano in church when he was young.
There will be no comets now,
no pointing star to lead you where you know you must go.
Look for smaller signs instead, the fine
disturbances of ordered things when suddenly
the rhythms of your expectation break
and in a moment’s pause another world
reveals itself behind the ordinary.
And one small detail out of place will be
enough to let you know: a missing ring,
a breath, a footfall or a sudden breeze,
a crack of light beneath a darkened door.
~ Dana Gioia, “The Stars Now Rearrange Themselves” from 99 Poems
Notes:
A balanced life has a rhythym. But we live in a time, and in a culture, that encourages everyone to just move faster. I’m learning that if I don’t take the time to tune in to my own more deliberate pace, I end up moving to someone else’s, the speed of events around me setting a tempo that leaves me feeling scattered and out of touch with myself. I know now that I can’t write fast; that words, my own thoughts and ideas, come to the surface slowly and in silence. A close relationship with myself requires slowness. . .
A thoughtful life is not rushed.
Notes:
I am torn between two ways to handle this doldrum that has been going on for weeks, really since January, when I did at least get down a few small poems. The first way is to give in, to enjoy the light on flowers— yesterday white daffodils and white iris in the dusk— to enjoy this beautiful place, rejoice in the animal presences (Bramble at last comes up here to my study and curls up on the daybed…), to live the slow quiet rhythm of a day as a kind of healing. The other way is to ask a great deal more of myself, to drive myself, and hope to break through into deeper, more valid places.
~ May Sarton, Tuesday, March 9th. The House by the Sea: A Journal
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