6:17am: I’m up and out the door. It’s a beautiful morning for running. Wisps of cool air cutting through the early September humidity. Streaks of clouds cover the sunrise. A splash of color on a few trees getting a head start on autumn. It’s September 3rd. And a great day to be alive. (Hello September. Where did the year go? Love, LOVE, the fall season. The pulsating picture above feels like my heart does now. Ba Boom. Ba Boom. Ba Boom. Ba Boom. Keep tickin’ baby. Keep tickin’.)
6:23am: Pace is good. Both jets feel good. No one is out and about. Pesky squirrels are sleeping. Even the birds are quiet. (Yep, it’s just me and my head. And that can get crowded. Managed to contain the food intake yesterday. Miracle. Determined to get this weight down before the hibernation period. As Brenna would say, Thanksgiving is the time of the year “when I feel like I’ve eaten a gallon of mashed potatoes and a gravy-injected turkey and washed it down with six or seven espressos.”)
6:35am: Glance down at Garmin. I’m keeping pace with my last run. (Good. Not regressing on lap time. Spirits lift. Minds shifts to NY Times article from yesterday: In 1972, Hockey’s Cold War Boiled Over. Forty years ago yesterday, the titans of hockey clashed. I was in the 5th Grade. Fred Fillipoff (sp?), our teacher, brought in a TV to the classroom. Goosebumps return. Hockey is religion in Canada.
6:47am: I stop to get a drink of water. Walk a bit. A headwind picks up and is spitting warm rain. I can feel energy draining. (Mind chatter is sapping my strength. IT WAS 40 YEARS AGO. It’s no wonder I’m running out of gas – I’m getting freakin’ old. Can’t run as far. Can’t run as fast. Bones ache. Recovery time is longer. This chassis is feeling its age. Hope’s post flashes by: I Finished Last. Better get used to it Pal.
6:48am: I see a swan. Solitary. White as snow. Beautiful. Graceful. Peaceful. Majestic. (Mind flips to Katrina’s post @ Freedom to a Full Life: “…(when) you’re healing, you’re tired, sore, and feel off balance…there are many ways to ease this discomfort…Staring at or allowing yourself to look at beautiful things. Flowers, puppies and/or kittens. A roaring fire, snowfall, rainfall, sitting outside in the sun…” She’s so right.)
6:49am: I re-start my run. (Katrina’s back and chattering to me again…”Play music which makes you happy or calms you…Any of these which stir positive emotions will help if you allow yourself adequate time to really immerse into them…” I am now consciously listening to the music blaring through my ear phones. Good God. This is calming? This will stir positive emotions? Is it any wonder…)
AC-DC with “Hells Bells”
I’m rolling thunder, pouring rain
I’m comin’ on like a hurricane
My lightning’s flashing across the sky
You’re only young but you’re gonna die
Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers with “Even the Losers”
Baby even the losers
Get lucky sometimes
Even the losers
Keep a little bit of pride
They get lucky sometimes
7:07am: I click through and find Nick Drake and Northern Sky and settle in for the home stretch. Wind is now at my back. Rain has stopped. (I feel my body calm. The mind chatter is easing. Just bring it home Dave. Finish this up.)
↓ click for audio (Nick Drake: Northern Sky)
I never felt magic crazy as this
I never saw moons knew the meaning of the sea
I never held emotion in the palm of my hand
Or felt sweet breezes in the top of a tree
But now you’re here
Brighten my northern sky.
Flashbacks to youth. And back to today. Pushing. Pressing. Driving. Worry. Mind chatter. Headwinds. Soft rain. Turning. Turning. Turning. Bend it. Bend it your way. Katrina’s post. Hope’s post. The swan. Calming music. Tailwinds. No rain. Arriving at Peace. (Even if it is for a moment.)
It all started with Jung. [Didn’t everything? Deepak Chopra explains that Carl Jung coined a word to describe these moments of meaningful coincidence: synchronicity. A synchronicity is a coming together of seemingly unconnected events. If you focus your attention (“Intention”), you may recognize (“awareness”) that your life is shaped by those moments of meaningful coincidence (“synchronicity”). You may even be able to nurture and participate in those moments in a positive way.]
“YOU MAY EVEN BE ABLE TO NURTURE AND PARTICIPATE IN THOSE MOMENTS IN A POSITIVE WAY.”
Time Check: 45 seconds ahead of last run. Nap time.