Yesterday, Sunday afternoon.
No rush hour traffic. No meetings. No conference calls. No deadlines to hit. No work tomorrow.
No lower back pain. No shoulder pain. No bite from cervical spondylosis. Body at peace.
I exit down the ramp onto I-95 South and head home from running an errand.
I’m driving directly into the sunset. It is of such indescribable beauty that it triggers Mind to think of God. And then, No God. And then, Heaven. And then, no Heaven. And then, my late Brother. At which point, I kill the heat and lower the window to let the late winter chill fill the cabin. Need to feel alive.
Lori introduced me to “e·phem·er·al” (adj.) /əˈfem(ə)rəl/. Lasting for a very short time. Fleeting. Passing. Short-lived.
And to “e·the·re·al” (adj) /əˈTHirēəl/. Extremely delicate and light in a way that seems too perfect for this world. Beautiful. Graceful. Delicate.
And I reflect on how few of these moments, I have. Not chasing. Not rushing. Not anxious. Not obsessed by Next.
And Lori again, this time with “epiph·a·ny” (n) /i-ˈpi-fə-nē/. An illuminating discovery, realization, or disclosure.
Ten years ago, I wouldn’t have understood what Kerouac meant. It wouldn’t have registered. But here it is, slowly seeping in.
“Bless and sit down…and you will realize you’re already in heaven now. That’s the story. That’s the message.”
Notes:
- Photo: I-95 S. near Exit 10. Feb 16, 2020. My shot.
- Post Inspiration: “I used to think it was great to disregard happiness, to press on to a high goal…But now I see that there is nothing so great as to be capable of happiness; to pluck it out of “each moment and whatever happens.” ~ Anne Gilchrist, The Letters of Anne Gilchrist and Walt Whitman (Source: Brainpickings)
- Post Inspiration: “To love beauty is to see light.” — Victor Hugo
- Kerouac quote: Thank you Whiskey River.
