Sunday Morning

I could not predict the fullness
of the day. How it was enough
to stand alone without help
in the green yard at dawn.

How two geese would spin out
of the ochre sun opening my spine,
curling my head up to the sky
in an arc I took for granted.

And the lilac bush by the red
brick wall flooding the air
with its purple weight of beauty?
How it made my body swoon,

brought my arms to reach for it
without even thinking.

*

In class today a Dutch woman split
in two by a strokeโ€”one branch
of her body a petrified silenceโ€”
walked leaning on her husband

to the treatment table while we
the unimpaired looked on with envy.
How he dignified her wobble,
beheld her deformation, untied her

shoe, removed the brace that stakes
her weaknesses. How he cradled
her down in his arms to the table
smoothing her hair as if they were

alone in their bed. I tell youโ€”
his smile would have made you weep.

*

At twilight I visit my garden
where the peonies are about to burst.

Some days there will be more
flowers than the vase can hold.

โ€”ย  Susan F. Glassmeyer, “I Tell You” from Body Matters. (Pudding House Publications, 2009)


Notes:

  • Poem: Thank you Beth @ Alive on All Channels
  • Photo: DK. Daybreak. October 4, 2020. 6:30 am, Cove Island Park, Stamford CT.

Lightly Child, Lightly

Life should carry more meaning than the facts would bear. Which facts were these: we occupied a tiny corner of the universe, minor planet orbiting a minor star, in an even tinier corner of cosmological time. Still we wanted all of it, the sun and the moon and the firmament that held them, to be about us. This want had been bred into humanity, selected by nature, so it must have served some purpose once, but it had long outlived its usefulnessโ€ฆ What was needed now was to know.

โ€” Christopher Beha, The Index of Self-Destructive Acts: A Novel (Tin House Books, May 5, 2020)


Notes:

Lightly Child, Lightly

How do we forgive ourselves for all the things we did not become?

โ€” ย Doc Luben, from “#13” in “14 Lines from Love Letters or Suicide Notes” (Genius.com)


Notes:

  • Doc Luben is a spoken word slam poet. He comes from Portland, Oregon. He can be found on Tumblr, where he posts new poems. (Thank you Make Believe Boutique)
  • Post Title & Inspiration: Aldous Huxley:ย โ€œItโ€™s dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly. Yes, feel lightly even though youโ€™re feeling deeply. Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them.โ€

Lightly Child, Lightly

The truth? The truth about all this?… Weโ€™re doing the best we can, we really are. Weโ€™re trying to be grown-up and love each other and understand how the hell youโ€™re supposed to insert USB leads. Weโ€™re looking for something to cling on to, something to fight for, something to look forward to. Weโ€™re doing all we can to teach our children how to swim. We have all of this in common, yet most of us remain strangers, we never know what we do to each other, how your life is affected by mine. Perhaps we hurried past each other in a crowd today, and neither of us noticed, and the fibers of your coat brushed against mine for a single moment and then we were gone. I donโ€™t know who you are. But when you get home this evening, when this day is over and the night takes us, allow yourself a deep breath. Because we made it through this day as well. Thereโ€™ll be another one along tomorrow.

โ€” ย Fredrik Backman, โ€œAnxious People: A Novelโ€ (Atria Books, September 8, 2020)ย 


Notes:

  • Fredrik Backman portrait by Casper Hedberg for The New York Times
  • Post Title & Inspiration: Aldous Huxley:ย โ€œItโ€™s dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly. Yes, feel lightly even though youโ€™re feeling deeply. Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them.โ€

Moments snap together like magnets, forging a chain of shackles. Why?

Thereโ€™s a famous play, Equus, about a troubled boy with a blinding love of horses. The boy sees a psychiatrist named Martin Dysart, who tries to understand him by trying to understand his love. Dysart is confounded by it:

A child is born into a world of phenomena all equal in their power to enslave. It sniffsโ€”it sucksโ€”it strokes its eyes over the whole uncountable range. Suddenly one strikes. Why? Moments snap together like magnets, forging a chain of shackles. Why? I can trace them. I can even, with time, pull them apart again. But why at the start they were ever magnetized at allโ€”just those particular moments of experience and no othersโ€”I donโ€™t know. 

I can trace my love, too. Why stars instead of horses, or boys, or hockey? I donโ€™t know. I donโ€™t know. Maybe itโ€™s because the stars are the antithesis of darkness, of abusive stepfathers and imperiled little sisters. Stars are light. Stars are possibility. They are the places where science and magic meet, windows to worlds greater than my own. Stars gave me the hope that I might one day find the right answers.

But thereโ€™s more to my love than that. When I think of the stars I feel an almost physical pull. I donโ€™t just want to look at them. I want to know them, every last one of them, a star for every grain of sand on Earth. I want to bask in the hundreds of millions of suns that shine in the thousands of billions of skies in our galaxy alone. Stars represent more than possibility to me; they are probability. On Earth the odds could seem stacked against meโ€”but where you are changes everything. Each star was, and still is, another chance for me to find myself somewhere else. Somewhere new.

โ€” Sara Seager, The Smallest Lights in the Universe: A Memoir (Crown, August 18, 2020)


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