
Cormorants. My Spirit Bird. DK Photo at 10 a.m., on Weed Avenue in Stamford, CT. More photos from this morning’s walk here.
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Cormorants. My Spirit Bird. DK Photo at 10 a.m., on Weed Avenue in Stamford, CT. More photos from this morning’s walk here.
Video of my Spirit Bird, the Cormorant(s) @ 5:32 am. 60° F. June 12 2024. Cove Island Park, Stamford, CT. More shots from this morning’s walk here.


4:05 a.m. I step up to find that my digital scale is still on the fritz. First a lost wifi-connection, which I fiddled with for 30 minutes yesterday. And now, it just flashes and stares at me. I step off and on again, but it will not read out my weight. Now if that’s not telling you Something...I stand on it, staring down at it, a few body movements away from heaving it out the 2nd floor window. I step off, stare at it again, and leave it alone (for now). I’m not done with you yet.
Here we go (again.) 799 (!) consecutive (almost) days on my daybreak walk to Cove Island Park. Like in a row.
Humid. Breezy. 72° F. Low tide. 25% cloud cover. Few humans. Magnifico.
I walk.
And, there she is. A Black-Crowned Night Heron. For some reason, I’ve being seeing these birds everywhere. Like they are plants by Someone or Something extraterrestrial trying to send me a message. Look at her dummy. Pause. Wait. Stand. Look. Watch. Contemplate. What’s the rush?
She’s certainly not my spirit bird, the cormorant. But the anti-me. So patient. So stoic. So calm. Standing there in water up to her ankles waiting for breakfast.
So, I do. I stare at her. But, there’s something else gnawing at me. It’s that super thin, long white plume growing from the back of her head.
And the question is why?
Who decided it needed to be white? And not blue, orange or black.
Why super-thin and not a feather?
Who decided there needed to be a plume at all?
And, of the billion things to look at this morning, why are you locked in on this plume?
Flaubert continues in Memoirs of a Madman and November (1901), and he didn’t have Google or the internet:
Madness is the doubt of reason.
Perhaps it ‘is’ reason.
Who can prove it one way or the other?
Notes:

My eyes graze his binoculars and without a word he passes them over. And like that the birds are no longer smudges, but elegantly detailed and purposeful and real. They steal my breath as they always do, these creatures who think nothing of having wings.
— Charlotte McConaghy, Migrations: A Novel (Flatiron Books, August 4, 2020)
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