Situations running through my head

black and white,
4:00 am. Tuesday morning.

Headphones strapped on. A Pandora Mix of David Gray.

Situations running through my head.

Three good nights of sleep to rejuvenate the soul. A Southern Baptist Preacher, arms reaching for the Heavens: Praise the Lord.

If there is a God, she sang The Best Thing I Never Had on The Voice last night. Beth Spanger, a young lady from Aiken, S.C. I see Light, the woman is Light.

After fifty odd years, I find Molière and Le Misanthrope (1666). Les doutes sont fâcheux plus que toute autre chose. (Doubts are more cruel than the worst of truths. Act III, sc. v.).

I’ve ratcheted it up. Read. Watch. See. More. More. More. Faster.

Yet, not fast enough.

Who’s Kierkegaard? “What is a poet? An unhappy man who hides deep anguish in his heart, but whose lips are so formed that when the sigh and cry pass through them, it sounds like lovely music.”

Who’s Hesse? “We are not going in circles, we are going upwards. The path is a spiral; we have already climbed many steps.”

And the thought stream is knifed by a break in Pandora’s stream. A break in the Wireless stream. Who needs Woods? Streams? The Wind? A missionary blows it in – on a carpet of crisp autumn air, lined with a trail of smoke from burning leaves – Inhale Cohen; pause, stop, hold it there, right there: “Silence and a deeper silence when the crickets hesitate.

Stomach growls. Sam Harris tells me that “You and I are built of the same atoms as a fern or a ham sandwich.” Listen, as long as you and I are flanked with Swiss Cheese and a dab of Mayo, it’s all GOOD.

Time check. 5:30 am. Calendar check for the Day: FULL. 

As I get up to hit the shower, Yahya asks and I wonder.

“I always wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere in the earth. Then I ask myself the same question.”


Credits: Photograph – Your Eyes Blaze Out

Comments

  1. The gift of being human – the ability to set one’s own pace. Slow it down my friend – there is so much in your thoughts that are worthy of exploration..and no one – no one – is supposed to leapfrog while listening to David Gray..

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  2. It’s no wonder you have trouble sleeping!

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  3. I love your storytelling, David. 🙂
    Btw, problems with sleep can be one of the first signs of stress.

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  4. Your brain is working full tilt. Even if we don’t get around to doing it all, life can be very full.

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  5. Good God! Your head is like a toddler’s Busy Box!

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  6. excellent writing!

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  7. like an old school pinball machine, your mind is )

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  8. Interesting. Wow! I wonder if there’s a message between all the associations?

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  9. Great free association! And I love the Yahya quote!

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