Walking. With Buechner.

5:10 a.m. No. I didn’t sleep in. And No, I didn’t take magnesium before bed. Or drink a cup of Tonic Water. Or eat a banana. Or take melatonin. Why? Who the Hell knows? Maybe it gives me something to bitch about.

I walk.

It been 837 consecutive (almost) days on this daybreak walk at Cove Island Park. That’s 2 years, 3 months, 15 days, like in a row.

There’s a thin sheen of cloud cover over the moon. Even God found at Ōita couldn’t get a clear shot at this. Elsewhere overhead, the cloud cover is heavy and near complete. It’s dark.

It feels like a “down” day. Too much cloud. Too many people. Too much high tide. Sigh. 837 days, and you’re going to have an off day. The odds are such.

I approach the location in the photograph up top. A scene that I, and you, have seen many times.

I can make out the fisherman’s silhouette, but nothing else. Something pulls me to lift the camera up and look through the viewfinder…WTH is that? I stare through the viewfinder, a Kaleidoscope.

I take the camera away and look out again. It’s dark. I see nothing of what I see in the viewfinder. I lift the camera, and do over. God, no. It can’t be my eyes deteriorating further.

I lift the camera again, and sure as sh*t, it’s there. God found at Ōita has returned. The pink hue watercolors are airbrushed on the water, the sky, the low hanging clouds and the horizon.

It’s dark, and yet it’s not. What I see. What I want to see. What I can see. What I don’t see. What I feel.

This string of babble pulls me back to my early morning papers.

Frederick Buechner died this week. David Brooks, in his must-read essay titled “The Man Who Found His Inner Depths” described Buechner’s faith as “personal, unpretentious and accessible. ‘Faith is homesickness. Faith is a lump in the throat. Faith is less a position on than a movement toward.’ It is sensing a presence, not buying an argument.”

I look over the Cove, it’s lighter out now, twilight is lifting. Now that I see, I believe.

But damn it if I’m not sensing Something out there.

Something ethereal, Lori’s magic word def. adj. //əˈTHirēəl/ extremely delicate and light in a way that seems too perfect for this world.

No, this brick-head isn’t buying ‘jack’ yet, but he’s out Shopping, and Something is there.

He can feel it.


DK Photo @ 5:30 a.m. August 20, 2022. 8-° F. Cove Island Park, Stamford, CT. More photos from this morning here.

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  1. What I see.
    What I want to see.
    What I can see.
    What I don’t see.
    What I feel.

    ❤️

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  2. Stunning. (And worth not sleeping in for.)

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  3. what a beautiful photo – you’ve earned a nap later today…

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  4. Oh my gracious, DK, how gorgeous are your photos from this morning. Can your fam see all these? Are they trying to talk you into a coffee-table book publishing of it all? Can we do so? Along with your musings, how fab would that be!!

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    • Awwwww.  You are too kind.  I so appreciate your thoughts.  It was one of those mornings that appeared to be close to a wash-out, and then Wowza!  Magic! So glad that I didn’t give up on it.  Thanks again.  You made my day!

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  5. If ever there was a good reason to stay awake…it’s as if the sky was opening its arms to you…

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  6. Magic is always there somewhere. Glad you feel it too David.
    Stunning photo❣️

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  7. Thank you for including Buechner … a dear contributor to so many’s life journeys. I was digging around in my old attic workspace this morning & stumbled on a drawer holding a photograph with Buechner at his farm in Vermont – 1996. A precious gift unexpected this week 🙏🏼. RIP F Buechner

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  8. Sometimes so important to give into that unseen other, that evanescence that lingers, just beyond our sight line, on the edge of consciousness, that glimpse of something positively gorgeous that you sense will be gone almost as soon as your eyes have latched onto it. And you, my friend, managed to hold it, if only for a moment….❤️

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  9. This brought tears to my eyes. Pink hues and Buechner… A beginning and an end. I will share with your permission.

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  10. that’s when the magic happens, when you’ve just given up on it and surrendered, it appears

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  11. “He can feel it.” and with every share of your morning rising …I see Glory 🙂 & gasp…

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