I wonder whether it is possible … to change oneself radically. Can I learn to control resentment and hostility, the ambivalence, born somewhere far below the conscious level? … There is nothing to be done but go ahead with life moment by moment and hour by hour—-put out birdseed, tidy the rooms, try to create order and peace around me even if I cannot achieve it inside me. Now at 10:30 there is such radiant light outside that the house feels dark. I look through the hall into the cozy room, all in darkness, right through to the window at the end, and a transparent sheaf of golden and green leaves. And here in my study the sunlight is that autumn white, so clear, it calls for an inward act to match it … clarify, clarify.
~ May Sarton, Journal of a Solitude
Notes:
- Photo: Laura Makabresku with “birds” (via Mennyfox55)
- Prior “Lightly child, lightly” Posts? Connect here.
- Post Title & Inspiration: Aldous Huxley: “It’s dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly. Yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply. Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them.”
- Related posts: May Sarton
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totally resonates with where I’m at right now. A blessing to open your blog and be comforted by these words… deep gratitude for your sharing
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Thanks for letting me know.
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Always consider the small… 🙂
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May, you are singin’ my song,girl, yes you are….
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👌
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…well I fed the birds…and meditate to clear all those residues of resentments, fear, ego…bathing the mind to clear for clear light….
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Beautiful.
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I am going to let this permeate…perhaps adding content later…
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We’ll be waiting…
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Yes, I don’t think we can alter ourselves that radically. I have tried my whole life. We are what we are. But we can clarify, we can become more conscious, we can learn to take a breath at a time – become more mindful. And thus slow the entire speeding bullet train … Down.
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Love this and esp your close…
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i think we can always strive to be better and sometimes that is accepting just being the best we can
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Yes….
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Beautiful 🙏🏻💕
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It is…
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“And here in my study the sunlight is that autumn white, so clear, it calls for an inward act to match it … clarify, clarify.”
Yesterday a friend said to me – “We are not promised today, so recieve the morning as the gift that it is.” What if we extend the same directive to the self. What if we looked at the self as the gift – a mind and body to inhabit each day. How would it change who you are? Clarify. Clarify. Let that clear white autumn light illuminate our intentions.
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Yes. Beautifully stated.
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I lovedlovedloved this, David. My goal? I try (the operative word) to set my intention every day to act with kindness – toward others and toward myself.
Always giving us more food for thought, you are.
Hope you’re enjoying this beautiful weekend.
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Thanks Roseanne. It hit me the same way. Have a great weekend.
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