It’s Monday morning.
I’m driving down I-95. Off to work. Same
Two car lengths in front of me is a rider.
Helmet-less.
Cars in front and back of him giving him wide berth.
I close the gap to one car length.
And hold position.
Both of us cruising a smooth 55.
A Harley.
I’ve never been on a bike. Never.
Hemingway: “No, that is the great fallacy: the wisdom of old men. They do not grow wise. They grow careful.”
Man is speaking to me. Don’t like it.
I pull up closer. A few yards behind.
Then directly opposite him.
I drop my passenger side window.
Harley pistons firing. Emitting that throaty sound only Harley’s make…Pop Pop Pop.
I glance over.
A middle aged man.
Hair blowing in wind.
And see…
Bliss.
And think?
If not now, when?
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1-95 again, huh? Slipped back into your old routine, just one week after changing it…..NOW you can hear me scolding you, Mr Kanigan!
It’s so funny you say that Michael. When I was writing this post. I thought of you. “Here I go again down I-95.” You are in my head pal. You are!
I confess that I see the allure, David, but a motorcycle?! You’re SO vulnerable… How about a convertible sports car instead–ya still get the rush, but you a bit more protection. My husband keeps talking about getting another Ducati, and I keep telling him no….too dangerous. But the escapism…I get it. Life is short–LIVE. 🙂
Ahhhhhhh yes Lori. Ratchet down the risk. Sit in a car. (Air emitting from balloon now)
No, no, no….it just needs to be the RIGHT car. Try a Ferrari 550 Maranello, 0-60 in 4.2 seconds. Will get your blood pumpin’, I promise…. 🙂
Oh boy.
Bliss – yes…Find it – I wish that for all I care about. Jewish mama implores that you wear a helmet. Want to feel the wind in your hair? Buy a hairdryer. I worry.
Helmet is mandatory. Period. And laughing, LAUGHING about hair dryer.
If you are going to buy a Harley (and I hope you do) please only ride on roads like the one in the picture.
Sage advice Carolann!
Flying a single engine plane out west sounds alluring. Did it many years ago, and it felt liberating. If i’m going, i’m going big
Wow. That’s big. And love the “If I’m going, I’m going big.” Still smiling Michael. Thanks for sharing.
I imagined myself right there…and the freedom of riding (though not on I-95 but rather like your photo!). Beautiful story telling, David.
Thanks Vicki. No, it wouldn’t/couldn’t be on I-95. I pictured it in the desert. Quiet. No other cars. Bike, air and wind. I could be there now. Right now.
Oh my, David… DO IT..
🙂 Working up the courage Makere.
If you didn’t have a family that needs you and loves you, I’d say go for it but I know you do so I too would recommend a convertible……just saying…….
Yep, I’ve already seen the eye rolls and head shakes after posting this. “Middle Aged Man in Crisis.”
David, just ride a bicycle…and stay off the freeway with it. 🙂
Laughing. I’d probably get hit riding a bicycle. 🙂
To hell with being careful … there’s a reason dogs stick their heads out car windows … it feels GREAT. Ride a Harley, go skydiving or parapenting … just feel the wind in your face, and the lift in your soul. We were not born to be safe, but to experience life to its fullest measure. Besides, I can’t wait to see the photos and facial expressions.
LOVE THIS. “There’s are reason dogs stick their heads out car windows.” LOVE THIS. So true. I need to build a head of steam to realize this dream….Thanks for sharing your thoughts Stephen. Still smiling.
Do what you want. Life is yours to live. I do wish people who drive cars cared more about motorcycle riders; looking out for them; paying better attention. Coming from a family who’s been riding for decades it is sad to be the driver as well as passenger and see drivers of cars actually look you in the eye and move over on you. Be careful and always give the cars the right of way. Peace and safety, Koko
So true. And to be honest, I’ve been one of those drivers who hasn’t see riders in my blind spot. Thanks for the reminder Koko
LOVE what Lori and Mimi said…but I get it. My brother rides, and I sent him the link to your post today, because he ‘understands’. I get it too…maybe a scooter?? 😀
Laughing. Scooter!??? Really. I don’t view riding a scooter on the open road as achieving the same level of Bliss. And me on scooter, like Pee Wee Herman!
OMG, you like Pee Wee Herman! Roaring now, Pal…. 😉
Laughing too…
Laughing here too!!!! No, not really, a scooter so WOULD NOT accomplish the same level of bliss. It was a stupid stupid idea. Just wear a helmet, ok? 🙂
Deal!
If we stayed clear of all that is dangerous, what kind of life would we live??!!
Yes. (But alive in some cases!:))
I’ve been on the back of a motorcycle a few times. All I could think about was how fast the pavement was flying by and how much skin it would tear off if I went skidding down it. But I’m not a fan of anything that goes fast. I loved your story though!
Laughing. Trisha, oh, I think about the same thing. Several years back I fell rollerblading. Fell on highway. Scraped clean skin on places where I sit. This was rollerblading – maybe 10 MPH. Imagine the damage going 50-60. Yes, it is top of mind.
Hi David. Enjoyed your post that my sister sent me the link to (Bonnie). Seems that you got a lot of ad-vice. My two cents would only be to recommend taking a motorcycle safety course…you learn good habits, skills, and safety awareness all of which add to you being a confident motorcyclist. Arlo Guthrie wrote the lyrics: “I don’t want a pickle. I just want to ride my motorsickle. And I don’t want a tickle. I’d rather ride my motorsickle. And I don’t want to die…I just want to ride my motorcy…cle.” [Arlo Guthrie – Motorcycle Song – YouTube] Looking forward to your newly inspired poem after you become a rider. Keep the shiny side up.
Hi John. Thank you. Motorcycle Safety course is a very good idea. Very good idea. And I’m checking out the Motorcycle Song. Thanks for pointing it to me. Have a good weekend.
Life is short David…pursue your dreams, but I agree please wear a helmet!
Yes Tina. Wouldn’t dream of it without one.
Its a “Harley Davidson” Man. So what are you waiting for? Go for it 😉
🙂 I need to ask Sonia. Have you been on one?
Haha. No never even though I would love to. Here in Pakistan one can’t even imagine a girl on a bike.
Now, that’s true!
That’s what leathers are for. To protect the skin. 🙂 David, I cant imagine you not wearing a helmet. You’ve so touched all our deepest dreams, wishes, fears and anxieties with this one. Oh man oh man, a Harley cruiser…. leaning back against that seat… leathers hugging, wind in your face, living that dream.. even just once.. I tell myself often that it will be too late once they’re screwing down the coffin lid, better do it now 🙂
What a beautiful comment Makere – Thank you. I’m with you.
If not now, when? is my favourite question. David, you do not seem to be someone who needs to be warned (one of my best friends–a woman–was killed when someone ran a stop sign and ran into her motorcycle)–but,there is nothing better than freedom–and though her death was a great tragedy, she was living out her dream
So sorry to hear about your friend. What a tragedy. Yes LouAnn. I get the risks (and therein lies why I have never sat on one) 🙂
I have sat on one–not one that was moving–my husband had one before I dated him, and an old boyfriend had one–but they have held no romance for me when they were moving–I did feel quite powerful sitting on one that was just parked though!
Sitting on a parked Harley. LIVING LARGE!
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Thanks for sharing Todd
Yeah, baby. But wear the helmet.
No doubt about it. Wouldn’t get on without one. I think I can still achieve Bliss with a helmut! 🙂
Hmmm….last name Kanigan? Sounds more café racer than Harley cruiser to me 😉
Whatever you decide, as it does seem like this post has become a cast of votes for Yea or Ney on David getting on the iron horse…and I’m caught up in that too, I just want to return to your poem and its imagery. Your poem is powerful…got me thinking about my own middle age conundrums. I liked your Hemingway quote and your response to it. Defiance?
To ride or not to ride? That is the existential bugger to grapple with.
When you do get a motorbike, you won’t have to follow your bliss anymore…you’ll be waiting for it to catch up. And be sure to wear a helmet: It will protect you from the kamikaze insects that also read Hemingway.
John, I had to look up Cafe Racer (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Café_racer) – didn’t have a clue what you meant. Then Laughed.
As to my response to Hemingway, defiance may be too strong of a description. Let’s call it reflection before execution. And with Helmet it will be!
I checked your Wikipedia definition. Laughing. Yes, I’m guilty of playing at being a road racer and parking in front of cafes as well as coffee shops and pubs. I’ve done The Ton and enjoy rockabilly music. But mostly, I ride open country roads winding through scenic landscape. Perhaps one day we shall call you, Kanigan the Kafe Racer.
Smiling. Maybe some day John. And I still holding out for the Harley.