4:45 am. Wednesday morning. Hump Day.
I lay in bed. I glance left to the window. It’s dark. Quiet.
Zeke nuzzles closer.
I close my eyes.
What’s it going to be?
1/2 way back. 3/4 way back. All Better?
I ease out of bed. And inhale.
A twinge. A bite. A grimace. An exhalation.
Let’s call it 75%.
Bit of grade inflation but we’re going with it.
I dress.
I ease into the car.
The icicles on the eaves dripping.
Yes. Make it be Spring.
10:00 am meeting. Annoyances are whispy, floating in a thin ibuprofen haze in an otherwise cloudless sky. 10:14 am. Left eye begins to water. A fountain with intermittent spurts. The corneal abrasion roars out of remission and is shooting flares. 10:30 am. In the car, heading home. One hand over eye. The other keeping the wheel between the lanes, driving well below speed limit behind a semi trailer truck. 11:30 am. Sitting in darkness. Taking conference calls.
Dispel this cloud, the light of heaven restore; Give me to see, and Ajax asks no more. (Homer)
5:35 am. Thursday. Fever?
I pop 3 Extra Strength Tylenol. And start pounding on emails. My left elbow tingles. I pull my sweatshirt up. It’s swollen, baseball size and throbbing. WTH? Where? How? Why? Thoughts race. We’re in a bit of a rhythm here:
Left lower back.
Left corneal abrasion.
Left elbow.
When it doesn’t feel right, go left.
And, if it doesn’t feel left?
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- Photograph Credit: Paul Aspen
- Credits: Doug Does Life for When it doesn’t feel right.
- “Make it be Spring” from Margaret Atwood, February).
If you can’t go right or left, chances are you’re going forward, albeit slowly. GIve yourself a chance to heal would you please? This post hurts to read, so I can’t imagine how much it hurts to live with. Easy as you go David, some things won’t be motivated by your impatience or insistence. They’re going to heal in their own time.
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Soothing words Mimi. I’m on the healing bus…slow and steady. Thank you.
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Heed the speed limit pal…you keep wanting to step on the accelerator and then you get pulled over (to sustain the metaphor a little longer).
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I’m with Mimi, pal. Your angels are giving you some pretty strong signs–ease off the throttle, be kind to yourself. There are some things ya just can’t rush….
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Thanks Lori. The days of rushing back are behind me. Yes, we’re healing…thank you.
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Yea,…listen to the ladies……..
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Ladies are always right. 🙂 Thanks Ray
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Goodness. Everything flaring.
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Laughing. Exactly.
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Oh how sad, but well said. Feel better
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Thanks Lorian
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Get well soon.
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Thank you.
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I’m thinking the game result will help the healing process along. Two for two … life is good?
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🙂 Don’t feel any pain right now friend. Life is good today. And everyday Canada wins Hockey Gold. 🙂
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take your time and head right up the middle. slow and steady. go around if, and when, you need to. listen to your body. trust in your instincts and follow them through. they are impossible to ignore and will always reveal themselves in a myriad of ways. as you have seen and felt. feel better, d.
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Thank you Beth
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Wow, take it easy my friend…I agree with all that has already been said here.
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Thank you Carol
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I think winter can take its toll on us, along with age and desire. Be a bear, even if just for a day, enjoy some mini-hibernation.
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I like that Be a Bear and Hibernate concept Debra. Thanks.
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“Pull the covers back up over your head and retreat – for goodness sakes!”
– said in my “Mom” voice 🙂
MJ
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Yes, RETREAT! Thanks MJ
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Self compassion is necessary here. Please take care of yourself so we can all (selfishly) enjoy your posts! Be well…
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Awwwww, thank you Theresa.
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David, I agree with Mimi… take time…and I am finding the older we are the more time we need 🙂
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I’m learning this the hard way Tina…thank you.
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Hold on there! Everything will be fine really soon. 🙂
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Thank you. Let’s hope so…:)
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Well, then go center, I guess. May you get well soon, David, and find your ground, groove and flow again.
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Vicki, thank you. Insightful: Center. I came across this poem that seems to align with your words:
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The center is a good place. Feel better, friend!
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Thanks Carolann!
On Mon, Feb 24, 2014 at 7:34 AM, lead.learn.live. wrote:
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Take Care Dear.
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Thank you Sonia
On Tue, Feb 25, 2014 at 2:03 AM, lead.learn.live. wrote:
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I hope your left side is feeling much better by now and that the right is still intact. Take good care.
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Smiling. Right is intact. Left is healing. We’re at 70% and trending in the right direction. Thank you
On Tue, Feb 25, 2014 at 7:00 PM, lead.learn.live. wrote:
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